Taking control

I feel amazing right now, which is probably why I've been missing lately. What do I really have to complain about? Nothing. I joined Weight Watchers last week and I already feel like it's been a huge booster in my life. I've started exercising, cooking healthy, and eating healthy, and I've never felt more motivated and energized. It's nice to feel like I'm taking back control, and I feel like I'm becoming a better person, too. It really is an awesome feeling. For so long I've felt like a mom, and that's it. Not like an individual, not like a woman who is intelligent, goal-oriented, and strong, and I think that I am starting to get that back. I'm starting to get my LIFE back. It's hard after having a baby to find that motivation to keep yourself fresh. I want to be me, and slowly, I feel like it's back in reach, or maybe even right in front of my eyes. For a long time, I also felt like I was a damaged woman for having a child- that I had no other value than to be a mother, and if I couldn't succeed past perfection at being a mother then I was worthless. What I've realized is taking back control of my life will allow me to give Logan that much better of a life- so that he has a positive role model who is healthy and strong. I can see now how important that part is and how much he deserves it. It feels good.... it feels REALLY good.