Defying gravity

Today we went to see Wicked, and I was blown away. It's such a great show and I was completely impressed and moved by everything... the singing, the acting, the dancing. I've seen several broadway shows before and I don't think I've ever been as moved. The end of Act I even brought me to tears- Dee Roscioli (who plays Elphaba) is incredibly talented and the lyrics of "Defying Gravity" get me every time. It really hits home for me because I've finally come to the point in my life where I feel the same. It's about taking that leap of faith, trusting your instincts, and not letting anything in the world get you down. It has such a powerful message. I feel like making "Defying Gravity" my credo, my mission... EVERYONE does deserve the chance to fly and I need to remember that I've proved I'm worthy enough to open my wings :)

0 weight change this week. I brought my points tracker to my leader to see if she can figure out why the scale isn't budging when I've been working out hard and doing what I'm supposed to be doing. It isn't easy seeing those numbers, especially when I've worked so hard, but it's a plateau. And I REFUSE to let it get me down, damnit! How can I possibly get down when I was able to put on a dress today to go to the theatre in that I was wearing my senior year of high school?!? That's even more crazy to me. Not like I was in great shape in high school, but I like to think I was a lot thinner than now. After all the huge changes in my life, it's nice to know I did something right and that I can still feel like I'm getting in the best shape I've ever been. I'm not there yet, but I will be.

We had a great dinner with Jess tonight and some ice cream too! It's so nice to have a friend somewhat close by to count on, and Logan and Dexter adore her. It's been awhile since John and I've been on a date, so it was very much needed. She told me she's moving close to the zoo in a couple weeks, so it will be great to take Logan to see her and have a zoo day! Logan LOVES animals, and it's fun hearing him try to say new animal names. So far the word he says most is dog, but it sounds more like "gog." Tonight my neighbor had her cat outside and he clearly said "kitty." It's the cutest, and I just want to gobble him to pieces hearing him say words!

Anyway, not much else going on this week. Next weekend is Julia's bachelorette party, so hopefully I can relax and have a good time. I'm taking Logan to my parents' Saturday to stay overnight while I go to NY. I wanted to give John a weekend to himself too, and my parents get to spend time with Logan out of it, so I felt like everyone wins! I can't wait to see Jules- it's already been a few months and I can't wait until the wedding.

So much going on- busy, but very happy :)

6 miles

6 miles is what I ran today. Well, 6.2 to be exact. I'm not sure I ever thought I would be able to do it. And the weird thing is that I felt great! I thought for sure that I would be dying at the end, but I felt like I could keep going. I guess that's what happens when you take charge and finally make health and fitness a priority. I just looked back at my last post since I haven't written in quite awhile. While I might not ever be a size 6 (or smaller), maybe I could be an 8!

I've noticed lately my clothes feeling really loose. Even my watch is falling off of me. It's nice to have things be too big. Another foreign concept to me, since I'm always on the flip side.

I'm not sure that I have much to write about, which is crazy since I've been silent for almost a month. I haven't had many bad thoughts lately and have been generally pretty happy. I canceled my psychiatrist appointment on 8/6. I can't really tell you why, but I've been feeling in control and like I don't need to go. If that changes, I won't hesitate to make an appointment.

Things at home have been going well. Logan is still the sweetest little buddy, although we have had a few bumps with his behavior. Good thing it's perfectly normal for him to be testing us right now. Apparently the terrible 2's start now! He generally is very happy though.

John and I have been good to each other too, which makes things a lot easier. I know he was proud of me today- he tells me all the time how proud he is when we run. I think he takes pride in knowing that he married a strong and determined woman. It's also fun that we have running as something we can always do together. We don't have a ton of hobbies/interests in common, but we both know we can always come back to a run to enjoy time together. I'm really excited for next weekend since we're going to see Wicked in D.C. I've heard great things about the show (I saw it in NY on broadway, but it was in college when I had mono and could barely keep my eyes open), so I'm really looking forward to it. My friend Jess is going to come to be with Logan while we go, and then we'll come back and take her to dinner.

Weight Watchers is going well- I'm officially down 70 pounds from when I went in to have Logan (26 since starting WW.) I can't even believe I was 70 pounds heavier. I still have 12 pounds until I hit goal, but I'm feeling more confident about getting there. The end is in sight. I just have to keep pushing through. If I keep running as much as I have been, I should be there in no time.

6.2 MILES. Good lord. Next goal is 10 miles, but it doesn't look like there is a race that length until March. At least we can do a couple 8K/10K's in the next couple months. We'll just really have to stay active over the winter so that we're ready for 10 miles. If I can do that, I know I can do anything. I'm already starting to believe I can take on anything that comes my way. It's really empowering. Starting to hear the words in my head that I will do it and I will make it is the most beautiful song my heart can sing right now.