Climbing the ladder

I feel like things have been better since my last post. The fighting has ceased, which makes for a happier environment at home. The weekend wasn't all that bad- I lost another 2 lbs on the scale on Saturday, so I'm officially down 7 lbs since starting Weight Watchers. I still feel good about that. Granted losing weight doesn't solve the issues John and I have, but it gives me something to focus my energy on.

I took my mom's advice and John and I were able to spend more time together this weekend. We went shopping on Saturday with Logan and hung around together more than usual. He made a really great dinner again on Sunday (veggie enchiladas.) I like to see him do things at home or around the house because I always feel like I'm the one doing that stuff. He also toned down the game-playing, which I appreciate. Last night we worked out together while watching Dancing with the Stars, after Logan went to bed, and it was fun pushing each other and just laughing at the contestants and other things. I've also tried to just have him hold me more often since I feel like that sort of disappeared for awhile. I've been seeing a difference. I think we both are happier. Baby steps, but I think we can get back to where we were.

I made the call on Friday to the counseling center I want to go to. I got some information from them about costs and their process and also got in touch with my insurance to make sure I don't need prior authorization for psychoanalysis, since I would have to start with a psychiatrist upon going to the center. I need to see a psychiatrist anyway since my family doctor prescribed my current medication and I was told that I need someone monitoring me. So I made the first steps, and now I just have to call back and make the appointment. I promised myself that I will do it by the end of the week.

Here's to hoping that I'm going to follow through with my promise.