Yesterday, I had the joy of celebrating my first Mother's Day. Sure, last year I was celebrating as an expectant mom, but it's a lot different having a little smiling face there beside you. It was a great day. We started it by going to IHOP (gasp... yes, I went to IHOP and was still able to stay on track with my points!) We went mainly because I wanted waffles for breakfast and we realized we didn't have a waffle maker. After breakfast we went to our last spring swim lesson, and then headed home for nap time. After lunch, we went to a self-serve frozen yogurt place that is absolutely delicious. They have a flavor called cake batter and I can't think of anything I'd rather have. Pure heaven. Logan enjoyed it too! After nap #2, we went for a 4-mile run, and it was a beautiful day for it. We were originally only going to run for a half hour, but I was in the mood to keep going, so I just went with it. We had dinner afterwards- sun-dried tomato and goat cheese ravioli with a salad, which I made. I couldn't have asked for a better day :)
The past week has gone well. I did see my psychiatrist on Saturday, and while she said she would have liked to see a better reaction to my medication, she didn't increase it. She did prescribe a provitamin though that will help me respond better to the dosage I am on. So we'll give that a try and see how things go. The positive news is that I don't have to see her again for another month. So she must be confident that I am doing ok- and I am too.
At Weight Watchers I lost another 2.2 lbs for a total of 17.6 lbs in 2 months. I'm extremely happy with that! I'm basically halfway to my goal, since I had said I wanted to lose 35 lbs before Julia's wedding. I think I can do it. It still feels great to be taking charge of my life and getting healthy. I know how important it is to set a good example for Logan. John has told me again and again how proud he is of me. I was convinced that in the beginning, I was pushed into doing this for him- but really, I did it for me. I needed to feel like I had value- that I was worth it. The bonus is that by helping myself, I am helping my family and providing a better life for all of us.
Yesterday, I put Logan to bed, and had a thought. As I shut off the light and closed the door, inching away from his smiling face, I realized that there is nothing in this world more beautiful than his little smile. I would run mile after mile if it meant that I could see his smiling face for one more day. I guess now I know what it feels like- to really feel and love like a mother does. My mom made me a shuterfly book for Mother's Day with pictures of Logan and me from the past year. On one of the pages, she included a poem about how even though mommies are choosing and planning for their babies, their babies are choosing their mommies. By his happiness, hugs, and love, I know he chose me. And I would choose him over and over again. He is the light of my life and makes me so happy to be his mom. Every day.
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